for a while now i have been debating if I should stay and fight for my relationship or walk away...
about 8 months ago my girlfriend of almost 2 years cheated on me which devastated me in every way possible and lied to me in many ways, at that point and time we were living together and building a wonderful relationship so i thought...i obviously found out and moved out but then she kept looking for me and trying to get me back while holding on to the "other girl" (mind you guys..the other girl knew she was in a relationship with me ) to make the long story short...it has been a while since this happened and for some reason this wound it is still burning and i just cant get past it...I know that no one is perfect and i am no one to forgive but i just cant get past it...specially because she hurt me really bad it was someone that i gave my 100 percent to. when i was younger my father cheated on my mother various times so when it finally happened to me it touch a familiar wound and brought out some feelings i had buried as a child.
I am now 25 almost done with university,,i am independent I have a good job but i have bigger dreams... my gf is 33 a wonderful person that i see that she is trying to get our relationship together but i don't know anymore if i see myself with her. she has a past in which in every relationship has cheated..I had a feeling it would happened to me but i took the risk...our intimacy is ok...i am a person that requires alot of physical touch to feel loved... and she is not like that, i talk to her over and over that i need physical assurance and affection and she lacks majorly in that department. Maybe she is not letting go of me because she knows i am a good woman with great intentions, and i am not saying she is not going to find someone better (i hope she does) but maybe she is too comfortable with me.
and the situation is i don't know if i should continue this relationship or walk away even though it hurts so much...
My mother about a month ago was diagnosed with breast cancer and i just need to get my head clear of this because i want to be good mentally and emotionally for my mother. i would love to hear everyone's input. Thank you
about 8 months ago my girlfriend of almost 2 years cheated on me which devastated me in every way possible and lied to me in many ways, at that point and time we were living together and building a wonderful relationship so i thought...i obviously found out and moved out but then she kept looking for me and trying to get me back while holding on to the "other girl" (mind you guys..the other girl knew she was in a relationship with me ) to make the long story short...it has been a while since this happened and for some reason this wound it is still burning and i just cant get past it...I know that no one is perfect and i am no one to forgive but i just cant get past it...specially because she hurt me really bad it was someone that i gave my 100 percent to. when i was younger my father cheated on my mother various times so when it finally happened to me it touch a familiar wound and brought out some feelings i had buried as a child.
I am now 25 almost done with university,,i am independent I have a good job but i have bigger dreams... my gf is 33 a wonderful person that i see that she is trying to get our relationship together but i don't know anymore if i see myself with her. she has a past in which in every relationship has cheated..I had a feeling it would happened to me but i took the risk...our intimacy is ok...i am a person that requires alot of physical touch to feel loved... and she is not like that, i talk to her over and over that i need physical assurance and affection and she lacks majorly in that department. Maybe she is not letting go of me because she knows i am a good woman with great intentions, and i am not saying she is not going to find someone better (i hope she does) but maybe she is too comfortable with me.
and the situation is i don't know if i should continue this relationship or walk away even though it hurts so much...
My mother about a month ago was diagnosed with breast cancer and i just need to get my head clear of this because i want to be good mentally and emotionally for my mother. i would love to hear everyone's input. Thank you
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