Friday, November 22, 2013
Paranoia problem
i found out my paranoia problem from a song called papercut by linkin park.please look for the lyrics to know more .i feel like a stupid and useless person living in this world.i told my parents about this but they dont believe me.before i have this paranoia problem my life was great ,im able to do things fast ,think fast.when i got this paranoia things went bad, i feel like my life was destroyed.i cant even do a single things ,im thinking slow.do things slow like washing dishes other people takes 10min to wash it but i takes 40mins or maybe 1 hour .it is not that i dont want to do it fast but something has caused me to become slow and useless.i hope someone have this problem too or else i have difficulties to explain the unexplainable things.please forgive my english
My wedding
Hey my name is Chaitra and I am getting married in January next year. I want to know what all I need to do to take care of while planning my wedding?
My wedding
Hey my name is Chaitra and I am getting married in January next year. I want to know what all I need to do to take care of while planning my wedding?
''love'' ''problem'' ? -i think i'm falling out of love..?
..i am sorry for taking your time.i have to write introduction to the ''problem'' first..
I met this boy at my friends birthday party and we kicked off pretty well. (Others were all drunk so I was hanging with him and it was fun xD) .Day after ,our friends all noticed that we are acting kinda like a couple already..O.o and it was weird for me but at the same time i was ok with it ..maybe i was drunk too?
He asked me out for a walk the second night.We talked and laughed.And at the end of the evening he wanted to kiss me but I got shy and asked him to 'leave that for some other time'..
When I got home i was kind of regretting it,and when i said that to my best friend (the two of them are childhood friends (we met on her birthday)) she got angry and threw pillow at me xD .She said that now is my turn to ask him out..so I did it ,the same cheesy way he asked me the first night (but it was also sweet) xD.
Soo third day,we went out,we talked and laughed.I told him that I haven't had my first kiss yet.And he said that my reaction last time was really cute and that my cheeks were really red! ..and i got shy again -.-' .after a long while, we sat at the bench,and it took me 20 minutes to finally kiss him..we actually talked about it! he explained me how to kiss (hahahaha i am such an idiot..). Then he leaned in slowly..but I moved!! I freakin' moved!!! if he hadn't been nervous till now, i definitely screwed now :S .We talked..and then i leaned to him and we finally kissed. it was sweet but i still don't know what I'm doing xD he even hugged me after.
Aaand we went out the the next day, with two other friends. It wasn't that awkward but neither of us spoke much. He walked me back home and we kissed,but I got shy again.. -.-'
We said our goodbyes because he had to got out of town for few days.. and we talked on Fb and he sent me funny pictures.But I was thinking (he stayed for 5 days) this whole time about everything...My brain in destroyed..i think i'm falling out of love..he is sweet,and very funny..but i don't think i have a crush o him..i don't have a lot of male friends so i stuck to him right away..but i'm not looking forward to kissing him or to go out with him,and to read his messages ..I think he really likes me .whats wrong with me? I don't feel butterflies >.< (or elephants crushing my organs (that is what's going on in my stomach when i fall in love) Am I drama queen? Everything is perfect,right? I just have to make up some drama in my life..is that it? ..my head is a mess -.-'
.He asked me to go out tomorrow,but i still haven't answered. I don't know how to react when see him..
to sum things up. I think i am falling out of love..what should i do? what if..i see him tomorrow and i don't feel elephants crushing my organs? ha? should i tell him that? how? ..i'm going to bury myself alive somewhere.. T_T
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