To forgive or walk away

for a while now i have been debating if I should stay and fight for my relationship or walk away...
about 8 months ago my girlfriend of almost 2 years cheated on me which devastated me in every way possible and lied to me in many ways, at that point and time we were living together and building a wonderful relationship so i thought...i obviously found out and moved out but then she kept looking for me and trying to get me back while holding on to the "other girl" (mind you guys..the other girl knew she was in a relationship with me ) to make the long story short...it has been a while since this happened and for some reason this wound it is still burning and i just cant get past it...I know that no one is perfect and i am no one to forgive but i just cant get past it...specially because she hurt me really bad it was someone that i gave my 100 percent to. when i was younger my father cheated on my mother various times so when it finally happened to me it touch a familiar wound and brought out some feelings i had buried as a child.
I am now 25 almost done with university,,i am independent I have a good job but i have bigger dreams... my gf is 33 a wonderful person that i see that she is trying to get our relationship together but i don't know anymore if i see myself with her. she has a past in which in every relationship has cheated..I had a feeling it would happened to me but i took the risk...our intimacy is ok...i am a person that requires alot of physical touch to feel loved... and she is not like that, i talk to her over and over that i need physical assurance and affection and she lacks majorly in that department. Maybe she is not letting go of me because she knows i am a good woman with great intentions, and i am not saying she is not going to find someone better (i hope she does) but maybe she is too comfortable with me.
and the situation is i don't know if i should continue this relationship or walk away even though it hurts so much...
My mother about a month ago was diagnosed with breast cancer and i just need to get my head clear of this because i want to be good mentally and emotionally for my mother. i would love to hear everyone's input. Thank you

 

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Please help me!

Hey, I'm only here because I needed today something and there's no one to tell. I'm done with life, I just can't do it anymore, I hate it and I hate the people in it. It's too late to get a salvage a social life, everybody knows I'm the weirdo, tue crazy guy, they all think I worship Satan and people walk up to me like "I heard you cut man" and I have fantasies about shooting everyone, but mostly about shooting myself. No one really loves me. I feel like a burden. Maybe when they hear I killed myself they'll be sad. Probably not. No one likes me. I have practically no friends. I dont really like my family except for my mum most of the time. I hate everything. I have no reason to go on. Damn.

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Low self-confidece, please give me an advice

Alright, this is gonna be a long talk I guess, first of all, sorry for my English, I'm not a native speaker & Thank you for reading this.

I AM CONFUSED, FRUSTRATED AND EMOTIONALLY DRAINED!

I would never tell this to my friend or relatives, it's the internet so I can share it without shame.

I am a person with a low-self esteem, really low, extremely low.
Why ?! - I guess it's because I haven't achieved anything BIG in life, no success, no goals. + Biggest one - overweight.

A bit about me : I'm 19 yo student, on my 2nd year at college. I've always been a smart guy, high grades etc etc... Now I'm in a good university. I'm telling you all this just because you won't be able think of me as a "dumb person" after reading all I'm gonna write. Well, I found Internet Marketing a year ago and since than I've been testing waters, I have a decent knowledge but made only $1000 in the past 12 months, laziness + low self esteem.
I don't even know where to begin.

Last years I had no idea what success was, I was worrying about how to get better PC, video games and stuff like that. After that my dad died and I had to take care of my family, that's where the harsh life begins, I'm not complaining, I got over many things and will in the future, in other words I'm seeking a successful life, right now all I want is to lose fat and make money for living.
First of all, I gotta say (if you've not been obese, you can't get this fully) that being overweight ruins one's whole life, I'm sure the main reason my confidence is equal to zero is being fat. I feel like a failure, it feels horrible when people are looking at you with eyes saying "damn, look at him, he's fat"... after all those things you start thinking that you're a failure, you're starting to have negative core beliefs, everything I do now feels wrong, I'm working - ITS WRONG! I'm talking - ITS WRONG! Relationships - ITS WRONG, even when I move it feels wrong. I would cry this crap out of me if I was a girl :you can laugh here: ... It's a lot of effort to be able to have faith in yourself after this.

You know the main reason of my low self-esteem. It affects everything, from relationships to work, I can't focus. 1 year ago I didn't pay any attention to this but now it bothers me this much. I feel like a COMPLETE failure, I need help.

Another problem (everything combined) : Today, I decided to re-think all things, like business, how I should do it etc etc ... I said to myself, I must think positive (a hundred times) and it turned in something like a behavior, I mean now my another half believes if I don't think positive 24/7 I'm gonna fail at everything. I'm sure it's not clear to you at all. I feel like positive thinking is a must do thing, of course it is but if I think "normally" I feel it's wrong, my mind wants to be motivated and excited all the time, that's not possible.

I wrote down things like :

What am I facing ?! - Low self-esteem
Why ?! - Because I'm fat, have no money ....
Can I solve it ?! - Yes!
How ?! - Be positive, don't do things that lower your self-esteem.

Every time a thought comes to my mind I start to think "is this right? should I do this?".... I wanted to boost my confidence with acting correctly all the time, no mistake, but when I do something I don't like even a bit I think "geez, I'm hopeless". Horrible feeling.

To put it clear, I can't sum up everything and make a decision, not in this situation only, every time, everywhere. It's because of my "excellent" self-esteem, every time I try to do something, I doubt myself and feel like a failure.

I hope you got it.

Biggest decision I want to make : I know that it is true but can't assure my other self. I said I'm seeking success, I know I can achieve it by taking action but my other half can't believe, it feel like I am divided in two parts. First one thinks that I need only action to become successful, another thinks that I need to combine positive thinking & action, unless I'll be a loser.

Someone tell me, I can get joy, happiness and normal self-confidence by achieving my goals ? I mean if I lose weight and make money, it'll definitely boost my confidence, I'm afraid that I'm gonna feel/act like a loser after that too, but I realize it's not true, hell of a mind game.

Tell me : Can actions like losing wight, making money (that will be the most enjoyable things in my life) bring me self-confidence?

THANKS!

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My student fancies me!!!

Hello everybody,
I am a teacher in the senior section of a reputed school. I am 27, is happily married and have a 4 year old daughter. I keep a close rapport with all my students since it's very necessary to be friendly with teens to handle them.It's about one of my favorite students. He is 18...a very good boy, studies well, very well behaved,sincere in whatever he does and is always ready to help others. That's a quality I appreciate the most since its very rare in the new generation. I was the club convenor of my subject last year , I needed help since I was doing it for the first time and he gave me his maximum support. He helped me in making subject magazines, in arranging exhibitions (he draws beautifully), seminars, typing my notes. ...We were very comfortable around each other.But in a past one or two months i noticed that his attitude towards me has changed.He is no longer comfortable when he is with me, avoids my eyes while talking to me.But I have caught him staring at me many times while I am teaching. He becomes very moody if I talk and laugh with any other student. I am very much worried for him. He is my most favorite student. I can see he is distracted in class and that will definitely affect his studies. He told me his exams were ok but still I am worried. I can't believe the boy who laughed and joked with me easily a few months before has completely changed. I tried to talk to him, but he is avoiding me. Now its vacation time, in three weeks the school will reopen. He usually used to call me to clear doubts but now no calls..i haven't heard from him since the vacation started. It was one of my colleagues(also my best friend) who suggested that he may have a crush on me. I was very embarrassed. But the more I think about his behavior... I don't know what to do..how to handle him...pls help me with your suggestions.. I want my best student back...next year i want to see him in in his usual self..

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Jealousy or Justified?

Because my boyfriend will be reading this post, I want to make this sound as fair and unbiased as possible. He thinks I have a jealousy problem. I agree with him TO SOME EXTENT. The following are the facts of the situation:

1- My boyfriend watches Game of Thrones (which is a show with a lot of scenes which are not suitable for family, but a great story line)
2- My boyfriend is addicted to adult movies.
3- I am in a long distance relationship. I get to see him once a year, for a few hours. We skype once or twice a week.
4- Our relationship is 3 years old.
5- I get a little jealous when we finds other women pretty and I try to compete.
6- He admitted that Game of Thrones made him excited. Now he claims it has no effect on him.

Recently, I told him that I didn't like him watching this show. Because of his addiction, i felt that this show was unsuitable. I would have allowed it had I been there with him to watch it. At that point, I could have been there to cater to his frustrations. But seeing as how I get to see him once a year, I cant be there when he needs sexual release. At which point, he turns to such movies. He got angry and told me to get my jealousy under control and implied that I wanted to leave him for another man. Is he right? Or do I have the right to expect him to obey without a rude backlash if I ask him to stop watching the show.

Whoever reads this, please respond.
Thankyou.

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bad self-confidence

Please help me.I'm so unconfident with myself.
I think my years of life past such a waste.
I'm 23 but I still shy, have a bad communication with people, new people and even my family
I don't know what's wrong with me but I seem afraid to start conversation
I'm afraid of talking wrongly, like people misunderstand what i said
i want to take a job but I need someone to cheer me ..constantly..i don't even have a good friends, real friends
by my side. I don't know to whom to talk about my life, my ideas, my anything..
minus my family because we really have a live of our own eventhough we are living in the same house
we have bad communication..I don't know where to turn to everytime I want a person by my side
With my quite personality, how can I make new friends, and maintain my relationship...
I'm all alone...
I frequently cry for this problem on my own...
I feel like I want to go somewhere , live with somebody else, that would hear me...but where to...I'm so lost..

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